Day 22

Another day, more waiting, it seems they are loading up some of the riot vans as well as their truck, most likely they'll end up taking everything, but we just can't take the risk of trying to steal from them as they are...

Me and Sam have gotten into a good routine of watching, occupying ourselves with trying to see who can spot the smallest details. It's a bit of fun, but it's helping my focus more and I'm slowly noticing more and more about the world and what is happening. I'm seeing most of the Rani before the shots now, so I'm ready for it. I think that skill will be useful in later days.

Day 2

I leapt at the fence and badly climbed over. I haven't ever been the most energetic child, and I don't think I ever will, but I managed it and as I steadied myself on the other side I turned to see the thing slam into the fence and have a half surprised look on it's face until it carried on trying to reach me. I had a look over it and saw it was seriously injured, including having no calf muscle at all. I guessed that would have been the wound that converted the person to the monster.

I turned to the considerably closer Tesco store and walked there. The lights were still on, but most of the store was ransacked, with products all over the floors, and, worryingly, blood smeared alongside it. I shuddered thinking of seeing the woman die yesterday, already forgetting how it felt with my friend only a day before that.

As I walked in I paused and felt a horrible chill down my back. My mum worked here, I didn't know how I had managed to forget, but I had.

I was here already, I had to go, I just told myself I probably wouldn't recognise her anyway.

I went to fruit aisle and was just looking for anything without blood on it, in the end I just couldn't bring myself to eat it, just in case, so I went for bread, breaking open a sealed loaf and eating most of it. I then made for the snacks. I knew they wouldn't be healthy, but the point was that they’d give loads of energy and were light. I would have to get any healthy food when I could at other times.

I was tense throughout, as I expected Rani to be at every corner. But luckily (11) they weren't. It took a while before I found out it was because they would chase each other occasionally, and most likely others had been here the day before and been chased themselves. I guess there would be some out the back in the storage area, but I didn't know what that layout was, so I didn't want to risk it.

So I left.

I stood facing the outside world with a slow breeze. This world smelt, sounded, and looked different. All I had ever learnt was to live in the world we once had, and this? This was so different that I had nothing to base it upon. The movies didn't show how to survive in my situation. They showed how to survive if you were lucky enough to drive out, or be completely isolated when it happened, or even to run into people who would help you, just not straight away, but if you pleaded, they would relent.

I was dazed by this thought. How can I get through another day, let alone my life.

I suppose then I didn't know what I now do. How cliché... But it's true. I learnt quickly to rely on instinct and think a full day ahead. Those two things are the real things that have kept me living. All those other notes are an aside to my life and my morals.

I snapped out of my daze, took the deepest breath I could of the world and tried to think of where to go.

I hope you make another day