Day 164

A day spent checking the border again. For safety's sake I don't want to have any damage unknown for them just waltzing in

Day 4

Soon enough the rest of the group walked in threw some food towards me. A pack of crisps was hardly enough, but I didn't know how much they had; it could well be rationing.

They ushered her out and left me alone as I ate. I shortly realised that the food I was eating I hated. Cheese and onion crisps leave a foul taste in my mouth but I was hungry, so I ate.

Suddenly I felt my arm itch. I took my tops off and for the first time I realised what I had gone through. I could hardly believe I hadn't noticed before. My sleeves were worn through and bloodstained. Scratches lay along my arms and they looked pale. I had a new reason for my bleariness: blood loss. I made my way to a bathroom downstairs and clicked on the light above the basin.

My face was drained and my hands shook more than I was used to. I had scratches down one side of my face which I couldn't place to an event. I still can't. I was bruised beyond that but my concern were injuries on my arms. I washed them not even feeling them sting and I must have just fazed out. The next thing I remember was someone calling my name, cursing, a questioning whisper, then the door opening.  Matthew pulled me out but I broke free and went back in to finish cleaning the sink. In hindsight if the water was polluted I would have probably turned then, but from what we can tell we cannot be converted that way.

I felt his presence behind me, knowing he wasn't impressed then I heard another move beside him and call to me. All I remember replying was "In a minute. Just wait." I finally finished and towelled off my wounds accidentally rubbing off some scabbing scratches. I replaced my tops and turned to them. They motioned their heads and walked to the front room. I took a look at my watch, my elbows felt like they were getting wet against the bloodied and still damp jumper I had on. 5.30am.

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I hope you make another day