Day 186

I realised last night that I've been stupid. I've relied on luck so much to get through that I slip up time and time again. And either myself or Sam gets injured.

Getting myself hurt is punishment in itself, but I have no right to take the same risks with my partner in arms. To lose her is losing a part of myself. The part that smiles most.

I also realise I have been putting things off that could seem important. Like Day 4. So in the risk I die before I finish it. A summary:

After last post, Day 4

We moved around some more. Stopped and had a drink.

After I finished my sip I passed to others and they didn't drink just screwed up the cap. Very shortly I felt drowsy. I fell to my knees and they signalled Charlie to move over with saying "Your turn". She stepped up and took out a knife which teemed with blood. I realised their purpose and all their shadiness flowed into a realisation. 'Bastards' I managed. Their laughs echoed through my ears getting louder before suddenly stopping.

She knelt and thrust the knife into my chest. I felt winded and looked down. From the angle of the others, they couldn't see she only sliced the surface slightly. It dawned on me: the blood on the knife was mine from the sink and surroundings. She had kept it hidden from them as she unsheathed it. She meant to save me. I looked in shock at her and her face pleaded to me to play dead. The wound wasn't small, just not deep. It flowed freely and I played dead, or more accurately, dying. They took all my stuff except my clothes.

When I woke they were gone. I didn't know what time it was with no watch. I just had a note grasped in my hand tainted in blood, which I still have. "Forgive me, please live".

I tried to figure out what to do then I remembered that most of my stuff was based in that house with the family. The other direction to which they had been heading. I knew I had to bandage up quick but I also knew I had to get away so they couldn't find me again.

That is the shortest summary of Day 4 I can do. It misses out their tricks and me getting back to the house, and how I avoided the Rani, discovering their inability to see you when you stand still in the dark. It is also why I half wanted a confrontation with them when their van was stuck. I shot the Rani with the air rifle back then for none other than Charlie. I hope she is still alive. I hope I meet them again to get her out and take all important to them.

Tomorrow: Day 5 in full.

Today I have been preparing, as well as opening the pilot window and getting rid of a few of the Rani.

Nothing else to report other than Sam says she is safe still and getting rid of a few Rani, though she confirms the worst: there are obviously hundreds.

Oh well. Another day at the end of the world. Nothing new.

I hope you make another day