Day 104

A crisis of faith?

It seems that Pete was sneaking a look on his shift and he confronted me on that issue.

His comment: 'Having a crisis of faith? I'm surprised you can say that. I have two arguments for that. 1) look at the world and how it was created. You believe He made it all. Just because something dark is happening doesn't mean He doesn't exist. The most used comment on God is that he doesn't intervene on Earth because if he did, the devil would be able to commit one act as well. So that answers why he hasn't jumped in to save us: because we did this to ourselves.'

"And 2?"

'You could argue that nothing should affect the way you thought before the end of the world. You believed in God because of all you saw could happen and did happen around you. When the Rani came to be that didn't change any of what has happened previously. It added a new element. Now unless the Rani actually makes something you saw before invalid I see no problem. It's not like it was proven that the universe was a fluke. It just shows that something has happened to humanity. I'm not sure that point makes all that much sense. I guess I mean no matter how big the negative of the Rani is, in terms of belief and memory, negative and positive have no meaning. They both exist. They both are.'

After that he just went to sleep. I suppose he may have just been pretending so that I could think, but he did it again: he threw my mindset from confusion into thought with just a few lines.

I wouldn't say crisis averted, but I think I'll be taking the scenic route towards it at least.


The Rani have been quiet today. It was weird to have silence again instead of that low murmur they seem to have. I was tempted to peek out to see if there was anything, but I'm not that much of a cat to find out.

We didn't take any shots between us today it seems. This is good, I like having the ability to defend myself and not have to run every single time a problem comes our way.

Though hiding until it passes? That is good, I can cope with that. I'm good at that.

I hope you make another day